~The Thirst for Greatness within me Arises~

Monday, February 8, 2010

I cannot go on in life like this.

Having fucking depression.

Need pills for happiness.

My school sucks.

That is why it fails.

I am not going to submit to fate.

Just because of my fucked up school.

No way.

My principal is another failed case..

Go lick dog's ass.

Saturday, February 6, 2010

I am viewing the archives of my livejournal now.

2008 posts.

The more I read the more miserable I feel. Feels as though I am torn into pieces and then thrown into the fire as though I am unable to be fixed back again.

" K today was a sleeepy day in skul,, ear pain nv wear specs.... so slp all the way woot,,, hmm have been failing most of my subjects from prelims,, i know! im a dissapointment can,, peeps call me stupid,, but i shall prove to them,,.... Thx those who have faith in me, My family... Teachers,mr teo sry i let u down, Some friends... who do not despise my stupidity,, "

" Then today Alvin taught us magnetism, haha everytime teach halfway qiu jing n li hung will say some lame thing not funny de but u c their expression u will laugh haha,, yay they also wan go TP ,, hmm then after tuition i played abit of keyboard then zao home le teehee.. "

" Wa dunno why nowadays come down BC feel so weird when c Laobu they all,, lyk dun have the QI FEN liao lo,, Maybe its because i've changed? Maybe its because they've changed? Or maybe its because too many things had happened? No matter i wont let these thing affect our friendship de :) Stay postive is the best woot even when really get very emotional oso mus stay pesimistic eh? or isit optimistic? LOL forgot the meanings,anyways ALWAYS LOOK ON THE BRIGHT SIDE OF LIFE!! "

"人生这条路，若没有朋友陪伴你走下去，即使你有多么的成功，也会显得没有意义，珍惜身边的朋友! "

"Tiong kiat today came to skul with i wide smile on his face wor,, comfirm ahem ahem ahem with who le la hor?....Z.....O.....E.....Msg the whole day somemore, walao forgotten who help u 2 be together de HNG... together le oso dun tell me..."

I LOVE THIS POST THE MOST.

Judging from what you guys read, do you feel that I am happier now or 2 years ago?

If I could loose everything now to return back to 2 years ago, I would, everything now is against me..

Things are changing so rapidly, I am changing so rapidly, people around me are so sinister and fucked up..

Now I only trust myself.. and..

I Hate Everything about TPJC Wushu.

[ Tuition with Gabby and Weiky ]

Today morning went to have breakfast with Gabriel Siew and WeiKwang, felt like close friends at that point of time.

Later.. they went to attend H2 MaTHS tuition with me at Annexe. Gabby officially join, Weiky I think he only go for trial.

Tuition was not bad, then JiaJia came and after tuiton, Gab,Weiky,Nic,Jia and I went for lunchie.

Saw some drunkard trying to act paikia, whatever..

Went back centre slack, he rest gtg, sent Jia to bus stop to go for teaching..

Studied abit at annexe, went home.

Didnt go swim today..

Met Manfred, Heeseng, Mingren and Jia for dinner at Vietnamese there..

Now at home, emo-ing.

Lifes is so fucked up.

Wednesday, February 3, 2010

Infer how I feel when you see the picture above.

Today was the highest day ever man I swear..

Mainly because I think it was the CCA Exhibition, like damm loud, noisy, high, fun and everything..

Before the CCA exhibition was lessons, quite dull, felt like sleeping at times, yet still felt hyperactive.. I know it contrasts but you get what I mean..

During tuition, I was equally high! I absorbed all the concepts so fast that I feel like some genius..

Felt damm hyperactive.

I hope this keeps up because it makes studying more enjoyable and effective.

A message from JuZhong:" Let me rub your bruise for 5mins"

Hahaha!

Hopefully tomorrow is an equally high day.

Yippee!

Cant wait for this sunday, Alvin bringing us go China Town at night! Woots!

Tuesday, February 2, 2010

Honestly, I feel that after entering Junior College, my standard for pretty/attractive has plunged.

JiaJia is exception because she is Outstandingly Cute to the max. Haha. The key points on the above phrase is...

You get the point.
So yea, its quite a sad thing yet also a good thing.

Sad thing you people should know why.

But the good thing is, my expectations in life wont be so high, thus leading a happier life.

Ahh who cares, life's always happy with darling. haha.

[ School today... ]

Slack atmosphere in school due to the timetable.

I love rugby.

Told my class about the girl who looks like the drinkstall auntie. Talk about this some other day, when I manage to sneak a photo shot at both of them.

Yupp I guess thats all.

Boring...

[ Chemistry tuition ]

I feel so hopeless in chemistry.

Tuition is a pain because I cant get to concentrate.

At first it was damm alright..

Furhannah Montannah, Ifarnah and I.

3 People. Sophie can manage.

Now 5 people, addition of NANDINI and some TJ girl whom I find her quite extra. Like. Eh fuck off type..

Anyways.. I dont know wha to do la. I dont learn much from school and I am quite dependent on tuition..

Ahh but since I am so smart, I should be can manage.

Teehee..

Back to tuition, today was an emotional roller coaster in tuiton.

1) Sophie, I felt that theres really something bothering her and its not her extracted wisdom tooth. I have a strong feeling its something else I have in mind.

2) Ifarnnah, I think I made her cry or something. Not because of anything lah, just that I was being proud of myself for not studying and getting 58% for physics because I am smart but she only got ... So yea..

I felt so guilty, awkward, sad, hyper and then .... dots. haha.

Okay I FEEL SLEEPY already.

GOOD NIGHT!

Monday, February 1, 2010

CPF Advertisement of Mr Kwok?

Gosh.. Maris Stella is sure becoming more and more retarded.

Well I guess the last awesome batch of Marists would still be the 2008 batch..

The rest.. Zzzz..

Check out the video.. Haha.

Hello guys!

I've just came back from school. Didnt go out with darling today so decided to blog. hahah!

Anyways I bus-ed home with Marcus Puey just now. Talked alot of cock.

Oh and I am way over with the problem that JiaJia's friends are not adding me and that why my friends are all adding her.

That is because I got enlightened by alot of stuffs today.

Most importantly, I found out that I am not an average typical guy whom I thought I was.

Basically, I realised one simple fact. That is that, a typical guy (especially in my school) would just add any girl they find appealing to them. Which is damm retarded to me..

Whats the point of adding someone you dont know on facebook or whatsoever, its just plainly showing that..

Firstly, you lack friends..

Secondly, you are desperately in need of friends..

Thirdly, you have no life..

Why no life? Because you make friends using your computer and not truely going out to socialize and everything.. whats the point of being human? Might as well die and hope you reincarnate into a computer, or a facebook programme.

Therefore, in my scenario..

Whats the point you go add your friend's girlfriend or boyfriend even though you dont barely know him or her.

So you loosers, I know who you are, should plainly go get and life. Stop prying into other people's personal lives.. KPO also KPO until so obvious..

As a conclusion, I felt depressed that day because I didnt know the nature of an average typical guy.

Desperates.

I am so very relieved I concluded myself to not be one of them.

So yea, initially it felt so weird. But at least I am now enlightened and I know that I am different in a better way.

YAY!

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Bet you guys must be wondering why I was so busy these days.

Well, its because I am involved in the Orientation thingy for the JC1 Batch.

It was really fun and made quite a number of friends there..

Cant wait for the orientation camp..

Post up pictures soon.

Alright I lazy to blog already.

BYE!

Sunday, January 31, 2010

Will be blogging soon.

OGL events and training made my life busier by 3 times.

zzz.

Sorry.